Monday, July 05, 2010

Walls

One week ago today we caught the first glimpse of our daughter. It’s been a hard week. And long, it has been a looonnngg week. Looking back, I am amazed to see how far we have come in one week which has felt like a month… or longer. If I could have told myself a week ago this is where we’d be I might not have had my multiple breakdowns.

Maybe.

On our first trip to Ukraine (where we ran a week-long VBS at an orphanage) there was a group of older kids with hard faces who seemed impossible to reach. Yet, connections were made and the hardness would fade by the end of each day. The next morning, when we’d come back the hardness had returned to the faces. Walls had been built while we slept making the first task of the new day the breaking down of walls.

It feels that way with Suhn. Each day the wall we worked so hard to tear down the day before has returned. But each day the wall is slightly lower and comes down a little easier.

Wall demolition comes a little harder for me. The blockade Suhn puts between us is stronger than the one between her and her “ba ba.” It’s coming though. She actually cried when I disappeared from her line of sight today. When I came back she would barely look at me, but she did stop crying.

She was sad this morning. Missing her ma. But by the end of the day she seemed to be doing so much better.

She is one smart cookie. She can say Mya, Simon, Jonah and Sean very clearly. She can already point out nose and eyes in English. We are seeing more and more of her personality come through every day and are loving it.


We will be heading to bed soon, if our little Suhn-shine ever falls asleep. Waking most likely to another wall.

But that’s okay, we’re getting pretty good at tearing those suckers down!

6 comments:

smw said...

i showed faye pictures of suhn on your blog tonight. i told her that she's your new little girl. she kept saying "kory and megan," as she looked at the pictures. then, "megan her mama."

she definitely acted excited about a new friend. identifying a little what's going on, too. it was sweet.

Amber said...

oh Megan - I love that last picture. It just made me smile.

We continue to think of you guys so often and pray for you.

Praying tomorrow holds another step forward for you all!

Betsy Z. said...

Oh Megan, your posts have had me bawling at times, then laughing! What a ride it's been for you! We are praying for you... can't wait to meet Suhn!

Missy @ It's Almost Naptime said...

Thank you, Lord, for giving your precious Suhn such an understanding and loving mommy.

Sara Huber said...

Hi Megan...just wanted to say congrats on your sweet little girl! It's always so hard to watch children have their world turned upside-down, but what a blessed little girl she is...she will realize that more each day! :)

smw said...

i put a comment on here last night, but for some reason it didn't show up. :(

anyway, last night i asked faye if she wanted to see kory and megan's new little girl. shaun's new sister who would be her friend. she did, and she loved looking at the pictures. she kept saying 'kory and megan'. and then she'd say, 'megan's her mama!'.

it was really sweet, and faye is already making friends with suhn. :)