Friday, July 16, 2010

Ups and Downs

It's been an up and down kind of week.

Walls, emotions, tempers, sleep. Up and down.

Frankly, I've been the worse offender. Terrible I know, but true.

I'm happy to report that as the week has gone by, we've (I've) been having more ups than downs. At the core, I believe it boils down to this: I suck at change.

We just don't get along (me and change, or change and I?).

Suhn, I'm happy to report has been doing really well. The kids love her and she loves them. She has been eating well, sleeping well (after the first two nights) and overall seems to be adjusting well.

Going to bed has been a little bit of a challenge. She panics at bedtime. She also grieves at bedtime. The tears come, sometimes for both of us.

My mom suggested a bedtime routine that has blessed us both. It seems to bring comfort to Suhn, although she will still cry through it some nights. It definitely brings comfort to me. Grounds me and keeps me focused.

Simply put, I rock her and I sing. Hymns mostly, they are what keep coming to mind.

Jesus loves me this I know...My Jesus I love thee..On Christ the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand...He leadeth me oh blessed thought...What a friend we have in Jesus...Jesus, Jesus how I trust him, How I've proved Him o'er and o'er; Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus, Oh for Grace to trust Him more.

I sing, I worship and I remember that my Savior's love surrounds us both. And when I place her in her bed we both seem calmer and ready for whatever is to come.


smw said...

this made me cry. i'll pray for you and her.

and the picture of her and simon in just PRECIOUS and priceless.

Amber said...

can I just copy/paste above comment?

thinking of you so often megan.

Missy said...


What every child should have. And now Suhn does. Thank you Father. You have abundantly blessed this fatherless child. She is an orphan no more.

Holli said...

praying my friend.
change is hard and great all in one! praying!

Michelle P. said...

Do you know the song "Trading my sorrows"? After I read your post, part of the chorus came to mind:

"Though the sorrow may last for the night, His joy comes with the morning."

Praying for you!

Sissy said...

That made me cry too! Isn't it great that Jesus gives us words when we don't have them?

Jessica said...

I cried too. Megan, your routine sounds perfect! What a sweet way to worship the Lord and ask for peace for the night. Those are precious bonding moments, just you suhn and the Lord. Sounds wonderful. I pray for you throughout each day.

Llama Momma said...

May God continue to lead you gently as you shepherd Suhn. Peace.

Taylor said...

I am crying too. Love those comforting...Oh, my heart goes out to you all there. I am praying for you - I've even woke up at night and you guys have been on my mind and I just pray. Love you all. God is with you!

J Gutwein said...

I love that.. when I have been most scared old hymns come to my mind too :). Love, J

Tami said...

megan, i'm with all these other made me cry. there is something about your journey that touches a deep part of me...i think i've told you that befor. i don't even know why. i love you and will keep praying for you! thanks for being so honest and real. i think that was such a great suggestion by marla...i hope that in the days to come, there will be less tears, but what a great bonding time for both of you.

Melissa Unruh said...

Megan...if it's any comfort, I'm also the offender of our house with emotional ups and downs...tears at least once a day!! I hate change too! I'm praying we all make it through this adjustment period might only been a little more than a week since we arrived home, but seems like months!!