Building Anticipation

Lately I've been dreaming about a little girl named Suhn.

At least I think that is her name (is it wrong to give a Chinese baby a Korean name?). We won't know for sure that it is actually her name until we see her, but right now our family is praying for Baby Suhn. Wondering who she is, what she will look like, and when she will come home.

She has been in my prayers for a long time, but I honestly have not been anticipating her arrival. By that I mean, I haven't been wishing the wait for her would move faster. She is never far from my thoughts and prayers, but the four kids currently living in our house have been keeping me busy.

I am coming through a period of fear concerning Suhn. Fear mainly of the unknowns. The fear has been hampering the anticipation, but that is starting to change. I think the change is due to the following factors:

• I have been reading the blog of a friend who is in China right now with her new daughter. The reading has made our journey to Suhn more real and given a better frame of reference.
• The wait is getting shorter. We think we could get a referral as early as February.
• Mainly, people are praying for me and Prayer is Powerful.

Basically what I'm trying to say is... I am starting to anticipate Suhn. The butterflies are beginning to congregate in my stomach when I think about the moment we see who she is.

And even though that moment is coming up fast, with the building anticipation, the wait is starting to feel long...

But as I wait, I find myself dreaming about a little girl named Suhn.